I like to be viewed as selfless and giving….look how well loved philanthropists are and lets not overlook the Holy prophets and saints.
I have examined my heart and have found within myself the most selfish and dark thing that I pretend isn’t there and will go to great lengths to deny. Pride and vain glory.
When I do something I like to get something back. Of this I am ashamed.
The thing I want most is praise *ouch* on top of everything else I have itching ears. I want my good deeds to be noticed and if not noticed by employers, or other important people – get this – I expect GOD to notice and congratulate me on judgment day.
What a fool I am. The Bible is very clear that I am only a servant and that if I do as God wills, then I am only doing my duty – and who deserves to be congratulated for that?
c.anna
