I was once told that animals are creatures ruled by their emotions and have no other method of reasoning - if they reason at all.
i have also been told that a person can easily allow themsleves to be ruled by their emotions and base all their reasoning upon how they feel about a matter.
i am such a person. My emotions are constantly overpowering my thought processes and hijacking my will.
the other night I was unwell and was filled with dark, brooding, angry, hateful feelings and I cursed and accused God in the intervals where I was awake between bouts of sleeping. I railed at him that hell is unfair and we have no choice but to worship him 'cause if we don't we'll suffer eternal torment....and we're also expected to love him - without ever laying eyes upon him or hearing his voice and being without any tangible proof that he's there. Faith - oh, I had plently of horrid things to say about faith too.
My emotions were in control. I felt miserable and so my attitude was one of misery.
What a trap!
I am ashamed and can hardly bring myself to pray today.
c.anna
